The Book Blogger Hop is a weekly meme with a prompt featuring a book related question. The hop begins on a Friday and ends on a Thursday and should hopefully give people the opportunity to learn something new about the blogger.
The Book Blogger Hop can be found on Ramblings of a Coffee Addicted Writer and obviously my answers can be found here!
We’re going to play ‘anatomy of a handbag’ and it’s going to get real.
I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. It’s been happening since I was 17 years old and I’m now 34 so for 17 years of my life I was ‘fine’ and for 17 years I’ve not been so fine.
It comes and goes in waves. Some periods of anxiety and panic attacks are generally very mild and result in minor avoidance tactics and some are so severe I basically become housebound.
Throw in some bouts of depression and a cancer diagnosis aged 31 and I am great fun to talk to at parties.
No really, I actually am. Most people I know have no clue about the above and I’ll always be found yacking away to people about nonsense, dancing to the band and am often one of the last to leave. Sure ‘fun time Gerry’ will spiral into anxiety that will last weeks but only a select few in The Real World know about that.
My brain likes to contradict itself often. It is exhausting.
On account of my anxiety I don’t drive. I can drive, but I don’t. I’m looking into trying to get over that.
I either walk where I can or use public transport. Our public transport system isn’t always great. The trains are often delayed, cancelled or they reduce carriages and because I live on the London commuter belt this often results in overcrowding.
Overcrowding means I can’t get onto the train because…. you guessed it… panic attacks and anxiety. What fun! I have been known to wait on a train platform for over an hour before I feel comfortable or ‘ready’ to get on a train.
I have also been known to get a train that gets into my destination over two hours before I need to be there because I know the ‘best’ train is also the busiest.
My handbag consists of the following items at all times:-
- Umbrella (I do live in England after all)
- Plastic bag
- Travel sick tablets
- Stomach upset tablets
- Emergency diazapam
- Book or Kindle
Guys….. I cram a lot of stuff in my bag! Sometimes there’s even snacks! No seriously, I found a surprise mini Snickers bar yesterday and I was over the moon.
Anyway… because I commute and because I can be found waiting places for people or for the next train I need something to occupy my time and my mind. Normally this is reading. If I’m slumping because my brain can’t cope with the world then it becomes scrolling through the nonsense on my phone.
Regardless of whether I’m slumping or not I still like to have my book or Kindle on me. I’m leaning more towards my Kindle now for out of house stuff on account of my Mary Poppins bag of crap killing my back.
If I shove a 500+ page hardback in my bag there’s a chiropractor somewhere with pound signs in their eyes I swear it.
So yes, I always carry a book with me. I’ve made my reasons sound really sad but honestly, 17 years and you get used to it. I really enjoy reading so it’s never wasted time.
Aside from when I play Lily’s Garden on my phone. Or go on Tumblr. I have no excuses there.
Here are some blogs for the week! Don’t forget to hop on over!
Shri @ Sun and Chai talks about Siblings: Hard to Write, More Like Hardly Written
Margaret @ Weird Zeal discusses The Future of YA (Part 1)
Ally @ Ally Writes Things presents us with How To: Get Ideas for Blog Posts
Siobhan @ Siobhan’s Novelties tells us Why Age Shouldn’t Matter When Reading YA Books
May @ Forever and Everly is hosting The Third Annual 2019 Book Blogger Awards and it’s time to get voting!
Let me know whether you always carry a book with you and your reasons for doing so. They don’t have to be as semi-tragic as mine!
I’ll hopefully see you next week when I answer the question of whether I own more than one copy of a book.